Today I found out that a dear friend of mine miscarried. I cannot stop crying. Not gentle tears, but big, fat alligator tears and hyperventilation. You see, it's not fair. It's not fair. She is one of the most beautiful, most selfless, giving, loving, forgiving, nurturing, caring people I have every met in my life. I love her so dearly, and my heart is broken for this loss. It would have been such an amazing child. She would have been an incredible mother. And now, now, it feels as if a piece of MY heart has been ripped out. I did not know this child, I did not even know she was pregnant until today but something is wrong here. Something is morbidly wrong. WHy? WHy did this happen to her?
SHe is not angry about it, not at God, not at anyone or anything, but I am. I may not have the right to be, but I am. It's not fair. It hurts. And i don't even know why. I guess part of me feels bad because I wasn't there for her, I didn't know. Part of me just aches because this pain she must be facing. I don't understand, why God? Why?!
"I still have a plan. My purpose still stands. Regardless, I am still God."
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