Sentiment

Tonight my heart aches, for arms to wrap around me, for someone to wipe my tears, for ears to listen to a story they've already been told, but that I must tell again, for it is a large part of my own story…Tonight I look back to my past--something I know better than to do, but something I do anyway. I look back to ex-best friends and ex-boyfriends. Not that I want them back…well, I do want my best friend back, but not the way she was. Not the way I was.

You see, this young woman taught me more…well, God taught me more through this young woman than any one else ever has in my life. Because she brought out the worst in me--which is why our friendship ended. But, I also loved her more than I ever loved just about any one else. Not only was I her best friend, I often played sister-role, mother-role, mentor-role, counselor-role. And I enjoyed it all immensely. She made me feel needed, loved, like my life had purpose--because I saw and invested in her purpose…but she couldn't.

Tonight I miss her greatly, and I pray that God wraps His arms around her and gives her a big hug for me since I can't…her and her baby.